Holiday Mood - ON

First and foremost, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!
Have a nice and enjoyable day with your beloved ones. For those who is still single, enjoy the day knowing that this world is full with loves and people who cares for you.

As Chinese New Year is also around the corner, it automatically turns my holiday mood to 'ON'.
Well, if not, then you won't be able to read this blog entry.

It's been a while since I returned to my hometown - Penang (Malaysia).
This friday night, I will be boarding a bus from Kuala Lumpur back to my hometown.
Can't wait for that day to come!

Thinking of Penang Island, it has also been a while, actually 4-5 years, since my last visit to the beach and enjoy the sea view from there. How relaxing will it be, I wonder. Almost forgot how it felt now. If I still remember correctly, my last visit was also the day where we had a gathering together for my farewell before I left for Japan back then.

Hopefully, I will be able to take this opportunity, Chinese New Year holiday, and spend some time on the beach to enjoy the sunset view again. I also hope that by going there, I could find peace in me again, as I needed it so badly. Life's hectic and sucks for the moment.

Back to CNY plans, a lot of happenings is expected and my schedule might not be favourable for beach visit. Up and coming will be, one of the event that most of my badminton friends, and me as well, are longing for - the badminton reunion event. In addition to that, a few visits to friends house will suck up most of my time while in Penang, not to mention about "old" friends reunion and all others.

However it might end up as, I will try my very best to enjoy these days.

Wishes all of you a Happy and Prosperous Chinese New Year 2007!!
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

Misery...

Life sucks recently, with all the happenings around me.

I tend to do things that I don't usually do, ask questions that I already have answers, and seek advices that I already am practising. That is to say, I am trying to keep myself busy in order to stay away from things that's affecting me, emotionally.

I no longer have the calmness and peacefulness that I used to have. My mind is not peaceful, it has things to deal with every single second, it just won't rest. It's creating heat that is causing me headache.

I started to lose sight, and passion in everything I do. I do things, but just for the sake of doing it. There's no real objectives or motives behind the things I do. I push myself to do everything but not on things that concerns me. By doing this, I know I am not creating long-term plans, but loads of short-term plans of which I don't think will benefit me. Or so I felt. And I don't like it.

Question is, am I on the right or wrong track? These things above seems bad, but does it also mean wrong? I, for one, don't relate good and bad to right and wrong respectively. Good choice doesn't mean it is right, and vice versa.

These might be a turn-around, but it might also be a dead-end to my life. God knows. Darn, I don't really like to leave my life to God. Maybe I am really lost, and running out of ideas as to how to walk my life ahead...

The return?

After being idle for so long in this world of blogging, I suddenly feel like making a comeback.
However, I don't know if I am going to make it.
I am afraid that it might be something like - hangat-hangat tahi ayam - kind of stuff...

Well, I will try my very best... so stay tuned for my next post!